- Does he (you) know about me? the answer was Yes, Yes, Yes
- Does he (you) want to get to know me? the answer was Definitely Yes
- Does he (you) know how I am? the answer was Absolutely Yes
- Will we have contact this year? the answer was Nope
- What about next year? the answer was Of Course Yes
Friday, 12 November 2010
November is the National Adoption Awareness Month. .. it has got me thinking.... as I have said before - me and thinking is always a bad combination.
A lot of my fellow birth mother's blogs mentions they were "forced" into (using my least favorite word again) relinquish their child. I am racking my brain and trying to figure out if I ever was "forced" into placing you for adoption - and again, in my case it was definitely the opposite - my friends tried to get me to keep you. I have never been one for believing in astrology etc - although I'm apparently very good a reading Tarot Cards - the older I get the more I can see I'm a Libra - I can always see both side of an argument - getting sidetracked here. But I knew that my circumstance at the time made placing you for adoption was the right thing... for us. I cannot speak for anyone else.
However, that this does not mean that I don't feel the hurt and pain not having you in my life.... a fellow blogger put this so eloquently in their posting "We Bleed Too" , everyday without you hurts.
So, because it is National Awareness month I have done something silly - for me at least - found a site that does "physic reading". The questions I asked where:
So not sure if this is wishful thinking coinciding with National Adoption Awareness month, but it gives me some hope for the future. Anyways, enough ramblings for tonight.